Chin up Cliff, I know it can be hard but your family needs you to be strong now more then ever.
Knowing you they count on you as a source of strength and someone to look to for advice. I know this is eating you inside, you have a huge burden to shoulder..... Strong yet soft...
Hopefully things will work out for you and for your family... If you ever need anyone to vent on, feel free to get in touch.
Stay strong.... I know it's hard.
G