Been following this thread for a couple of days bud,some friendly advice.Fish more,start a family,get a real job,do a stint in the military,go to a few different random churches for a few Sundays,stay outside for a full day and for dogs sake...turn off yer computer for a few days.No offence intended but you are way too intense ( and maybe even smart ) for us old guys who have done what I have suggested you do.
Joe
I was once young and idealistic also