I went through what your going through SH.After my Grandfather passed,there was nothing that could get me out there(took a year).Since, got through it,fished a couple of times, but it,s work more then anything, that keeps me away.Im not much into fishing after work.10-12 hours,ya just want to chill.
Well said BTW.Hopfully you,ll get out of this funk and be out there.